Communication

For 27 years I’ve been trying to believe and confide in
Different people I’ve found.
Some of them got closer than others
And someone wouldn’t even bother and then you came around
I didn’t really know what to call you, you didn’t know me at all
But I was happy to explain.
I never really knew how to move you
So I tried to intrude through the little holes in your veins
And I saw you
But that’s not an invitation
That’s all I get
If this is communication
I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you
But I don’t know
How to connect, so I disconnect

You always seem to know where to find me and I’m still here behind you
In the corner of your eye.
I’ll never really learn how to love you
But I know that I love you through the hole in the sky.

Where I see you
And that’s not an invitation
That’s all I get
If this is communication
I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you
But I don’t know
How to connect, so I disconnect

Well this is an invitation
It’s not a threat
If you want communication
That’s what you get
I’m talking and talking
But I don’t know
How to connect
And I hold a record for being patient
With your kind of hesitation
I need you, you want me
But I don’t know
How to connect, so I disconnect
I disconnect.

詞不達意

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從林太說起

林太的出現，絕對是本年香港藝能界（好舊啊這個詞）最感動的場面之一。我告訴老公好感動啊（真痴線，其實我沒到現場，只看了youtube而已），他問為甚麼呢。呃，真的是很複雜的感覺啊。林太潛伏了這許多年，一出場淡定窈窕漂亮，如果我是她的女兒，看到平日陪出陪入的媽媽原來可以這樣發熱發亮，我會超級自豪啊。

但重聽「小玩意」，我跟十多年前一樣，仍然覺得歌詞很可怕。禮貌點說是：ok我很喜歡你很喜歡那隻戒指也熱切期待我們即將要結婚了，但come on baby， 結婚並不是我的大志啊。而更倔一點的說法是：車，送隻戒指仔比我好巴閉咩，我送比你喇不如。

啊，真是一個相當囂張的女子… 但昨天我一個朋友說，我們這些其實嘴巴硬而已，藐著嘴說我最多出七分力，但實際上沒欺場地交足貨；雖然終極大志真的不是結婚跟家庭，但其實連孩子的功課都盡心盡力地弄得美輪美奐。

題外話，小玩意曾經是婚禮上流行的主題曲，但近一兩年，我發覺竟有不少婚禮用了林先生的「經典」做主題曲，youtube 很多留言還說這是一首很sweet 的歌。請問大家從哪裡看到sweetness 呢？歌詞根本就在諷刺整件事啊！這跟人們以為「單車」是歌頌父愛的歌一樣，真是一個令人瘙爆頭的誤會。

灰飛煙滅

昨晚去了跟一位長輩朋友道別，回來跟朋友說我腦裡還有她說話的姿勢樣子聲調，但她已經走了。朋友說對，ashes to ashes，很容易。

灰飛煙滅...

過年

秉承著過年如過日的宗旨，整個假期都在工作。當然，假期還是好的，可以晚起床，也很喜歡四周都像靜止了的氣氛。

今天，想起這歌。

我們不是大巴

（牢騷）好煩，可否不要再互相說加油。考試只要溫書就夠，不需加油的，我們不是大巴。